Father to the fatherless, defender of widows — this is God, whose dwelling is holy. God places the lonely in families.

Psalm 68:5-6

Sunday, September 30, 2012

Now and Then

Today is one of those days. Filled with mixed emotions. A day when I feel great joy in my heart as I watch my little boy laugh and play with his Daddy. At the same time I also experience deep heartache as I long for the day that my little girl's giggles are heard in the midst of the Sunday afternoon play.

We started our adoption journey 23 months ago. Most of the time it feels like an eternity has passed. Gavin was 16 months old, Esther 11 months. Gavin is now 3. Esther will turn 3 in December. It seems unreal that so much time has passed and yet we are still unable to experience life together as a family. I don't understand why it has to be this way. It certainly seems like there must be a better solution. I've played it out over and over again in my head trying to make sense of it all. But in the end I always offer it all to Jesus.... all the while praying that He will bring our little girl home to us in His perfect timing even if that means we must continue to wait.

 As I look at the "now and then" pictures above it makes me smile and tear up all at the same time. I love these two precious children more than words can say. I long for the day when I will tuck them both into bed, kiss them goodnight and listen to those two lil thumbs sucking away as they fall fast asleep, together, under one roof. Praying God hears my heart's desire tonight!

Saturday, September 15, 2012

Nothing Less Than A Miracle!

Our family has been blessed with some wonderful news.... my sister Sophiana received a number today! This means that she is officially in the system and that her case has started to be processed. This is nothing less than a miralce! It's too complicated to explain but believe me when I say that God worked a miracle. I am simply in awe of what He has accomplished in the past few weeks.... simply in awe!

On another note, we have been waiting quite some time for Esther's name to be printed in the Le Moniteur (Haitan newspaper) so that we can be assigned a court date. I finally was able to locate some information online about the printing and discovered that Esther's name had been printed back in May. So we have no idea what is going on at this point. We're hoping to find out some more information next week because at this point we are extremely confused!