Father to the fatherless, defender of widows — this is God, whose dwelling is holy. God places the lonely in families.

Psalm 68:5-6

Sunday, September 30, 2012

Now and Then

Today is one of those days. Filled with mixed emotions. A day when I feel great joy in my heart as I watch my little boy laugh and play with his Daddy. At the same time I also experience deep heartache as I long for the day that my little girl's giggles are heard in the midst of the Sunday afternoon play.

We started our adoption journey 23 months ago. Most of the time it feels like an eternity has passed. Gavin was 16 months old, Esther 11 months. Gavin is now 3. Esther will turn 3 in December. It seems unreal that so much time has passed and yet we are still unable to experience life together as a family. I don't understand why it has to be this way. It certainly seems like there must be a better solution. I've played it out over and over again in my head trying to make sense of it all. But in the end I always offer it all to Jesus.... all the while praying that He will bring our little girl home to us in His perfect timing even if that means we must continue to wait.

 As I look at the "now and then" pictures above it makes me smile and tear up all at the same time. I love these two precious children more than words can say. I long for the day when I will tuck them both into bed, kiss them goodnight and listen to those two lil thumbs sucking away as they fall fast asleep, together, under one roof. Praying God hears my heart's desire tonight!

1 comment:

  1. we are right there with you....praying..waiting..hoping...
    louise J