Father to the fatherless, defender of widows — this is God, whose dwelling is holy. God places the lonely in families.

Psalm 68:5-6

Friday, October 21, 2011

What it Means to Be Loved

When it comes to adoption people sure come up with some strange questions and comments. Someone asked me the other day why I was going to Haiti in December. To see my daughter of course! This person seemed rather shocked and replied with "You mean you're just going to visit?" Ummm.... yes! I thought to myself, "wouldn't you want to go see your baby as much as you could if she lived in another country?!?!" 
The conversation reminded me of a verse in the Mark Schultz song, "What it Means to Be Loved". The very first time I heard this song I was preparing to go to Haiti. I knew how hard it would be to leave Esther behind when it was time to come home. I wrestled with the idea of going... wondering if it was best for her.  This song brought me to tears as the following verse put into words just how my heart felt. 

"I wanna give her the worldI wanna hold her handI wanna be her mom for as long as I canand I wanna live every moment until that day comesI wanna show her what it means to be loved"
The story in this song is very different than our story, but the desire to show our daughter what it means to be loved is the same. This is my heart. For now I'm only blessed with a few days at a time to spend with Esther. Those days are always followed with a goodbye. My heart's desire is to make the most out of those precious moments. Praying God will somehow use me to show Esther what it means to be loved!
41 days... 

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